band stress

"Sometimes, no matter how hard you try, you just can't."

I've tried. My very best. But there doesnt seem to have any results at all.
I really feel bad. I feel guilty. I dont want to bring the whole group down. Perhaps without me, you guys could do better.

I'm sorry. Truly.
I dont want to do this either.
It's me. My problem. My problem that is causing all this to happen.
Please. I wouldnt want you to be fierce.
But you are just too nice. Forgiving everything i do wrong.
The nicer you are, the worse i'll feel.
And, it's just the best i can do.
Thanks for all the nice words and phrases that i needed.

I'll continue to move on. To the best i can.
I'll try
To push myself to greater heights.

thank you.