FORBIDDEN LOVE

somehow somehow,
why?
FORBIDDEN LOVE(piano) is now
MY NEW GOAL.
MY NEW LOVE.
MY NEW MOTIVATION.
Its just a simple song, really.
but it doesnt seem to have a simple impact on me.
I've heard all kind of songs.
but this one, this one, baby.
this one can move me to tears.
whenever i hear it.
whoever that plays it.
even the online one gives off the same effect.
WHY?
I am happy i have the score with me.
I can finally learn to play it.
I feel touched when i hear myself playing it too.
but it can never make me cry.
and i just feel some connection between me and the song.
as i play, as i play.
on and on.
makes me feel that once i finished learning the piece and can play perfectly*,
something will happen?
lets just grab on to this hope.
because there is practically nothing i can hope for already.
NOTHING.
NOTHING.
NOTHING.

i dreamt of you today AGAIN.
you were so nice.
so sweet
so motherly.
but in actual fact.
it's never gonna happen.
NEVER after all these mess.